As the world around me seems to be getting louder and more demanding of attention I find great comfort in sitting down to a hot cup of coffee in the wee hours of the morning and transferring my thoughts through my fingers onto a computer screen. I have always had problems directing my thoughts inside while listening to things that go on around me. This also includes reading. The bottom line is that I at times I need complete silence.
Silence is simply the absence of noise and allows my mind to internalize thoughts and spur my creativity. I wonder sometimes if this makes me different than most. I see people around me all day with earbuds in their ears listening to whatever or folks continuously involved in conversation. It seems to me that most embrace noise and the input of outside intervention into their own minds as a stimulation. I am certainly no stranger to external stimulation and understand that the world around me also fuels my idea’s and thoughts, but does the TV really have to be playing all day?
Sitting down and writing anything whether it is a blog post, another chapter in a book or even a detailed report at work calls for moments of silence for me. I wish there was a way to simply turn off the noise, but being that listening for disturbances was an important part of a career I once worked for 22 years I believe that I may have become programmed.
Many people suffer from internal chatter where it is the mind that never shuts down. Thought after thought keeps firing from the electrical grid from the confounds of their minds. I believe that many writers and others who are highly creative suffer from this and maybe this is why there is so much substance abuse in the area of creativity. I have times where it seems like my mind will not shut down, but believe it only happens during the period of natural monthly cycles because I find that two weeks later I find myself at a low period where their exists very little desire to be creative at all.
I have learned the great practice of meditation but find that even this is not possible for me unless the external noise is somehow shut off. But meditation is more about directing the energy of internal noise and offers me little balance.
For me finding silence in just a few hours of the early morning while the world still sleeps has become a habit and maybe a source of peace that allows me to get through the noisy day. It is my time to re-evaluate life, balance finances, pay bills, workout and of course read and write. It is my little refuge of silence where I can truly discover the things going on around me through news sources on the internet and give intelligent thought to what I have just read without the intellectual bias of a bobble head telling me what they think it means or the aftermath of a loud commercial pushing my thoughts aways from what I just heard.
The question that exists is that with so many seeking noise constantly is it not normal for those of us who seek silence? When I go on vacations I am always seeking quiet time in nature while others seek a busy day at an amusement park. I prefer a hike in the mountains over a day in the city. I like open space over crowds. I love the Simple Life and for me noise is just not a part of it.