I know that there are many people who can simply end working at the end of the work day and enjoy all of the pleasures of life at home. As I certainly do not have this problem I have to say that at one point in my life I did. There was always that problem that I was trying to solve and spending just a few hours working on it away from the workplace was all I needed to get closer to solving it. My employers certainly benefited from the extra energy I put into finding solutions to problems when I was not on the payroll. As I also gave my family and home all of my attention I found that getting up early and depriving myself of sleep allowed my a few quiet hours in the morning to get things done. After doing this for several years you can probably guess that it led into burnout.
It was difficult to slow down as it became a normal way of doing things as it became my morning ritual. If I slowed down I would give the impression to my employer that I have become less productive, yet If I continued I would surely make things worse. It seemed that the more I accomplished the more I was assigned to. It was never ending with no light at the end of the tunnel. The only answer that I could find was to change jobs and leave a position that I really loved and in the end that is exactly what I did. I found a new career with a higher paying salary, but also higher levels of stress and worry. But I did not take work home with me and my personal life was free of work tasks. I kept work at work and started sleeping well.
I often wondered just how many hours of sleep I lost during that period and if it had an effect on my health. There are so many decisions that we make in our lives that are driven by money. Money was the driving force that pushed my productivity at work right into my kitchen table at home. It is money that is the illusion of being in a better place in life, but the truth of the matter is that my salary was enough to live a simple, happy life but I just couldn’t see it. I wanted a better car, a bigger house and in the end I did get those things but the cost was moving into working a dangerous job that was filled with so many nightmares that I dealt with each day that at times I found it hard to sleep at all. And in the end that house has been long sold, those cars are probably sitting in a junk yard somewhere and I am living the simple life I should have been living long ago. It’s funny how the lessons of life unfold.
Lesson to be learned: Don’t let money be the driving force behind many of the decisions you make in life. If you don’t want to suffer from debt, don’t create it. You can get just as much joy from a small house as you would a large one. Leave work at work and live a simple life.
I am feeling pretty beat up this morning and I don’t know why. My sugars are high, my weight is back up and I am not feeling this morning workout. I will push through it this morning and keep it limited to almost my best. The sun finally did come out yesterday and I did spend countless hours in the yard getting many needed things done. I ate bread yesterday and suspect that too is having a negative effect on many things this morning.
Blood Sugar- 113, Weight- 174.2
Bench Press- 310 lbs- 15
Incline Press- 310 lbs- 15
Decline Press- 310 lbs- 15
Fly’s- 150 lbs- 15
Breakfast- 2 Eggs, 2 Bacon
Lunch- Burger, Salad
Dinner- Chicken, Spinach