The desire continues for that object that plays in my mind over and over again. It has been many weeks since I walked into the Apple store and witnessed the new high tech laptop. The young salesman was not pushy at all and explained to me all of the features of this device. I already knew I wanted this item and felt like I have dreamed about being a proud owner of an Apple computer. I am a writer, or at least wish to claim to be a writer as I continue to write posts on my blog each day. Does writing on an older Windows based system make me less of a writer? Of course not, yet there was just something very special about dreaming of sitting somewhere in nature with that bright and shiny, new Mac system.
Just two weeks of after tax salary could place this device in my hands. Oh, the excitement I feel deep inside of me just thinking about opening that box for the first time and setting up my new system. I see others who seem to burst with pleasure each time they lift the lid on their Apple notebooks in the coffee shops. Or is this just my own hidden desires of thinking about doing the same. People wait in lines to acquire these new devices when they are introduced into the world. Do they know something that I don’t? Is this device something that would make my life a little easier or more pleasurable, and would it make my daily computer tasks less stressful? I actually doubt it, yet I still want it.
Feelings like this throughout the years remind me that although the grass does seem greener on the other side, sometimes it simply is not. I remember staring into the window of that bicycle shop and working and saving until I was able to claim to be the new owner of the 10 speed bicycle, but soon learning that I enjoyed riding the old one more. I recently had the desire to become a ham operator so I studied long and hard, passed the test and purchased a small portable radio that now sits in my garage unused. If I think back throughout my life and track down every object of desire that I ended up making purchases on I don’t believe that any have panned out to meeting the expectation and the energy I put into acquiring it. What if today I had never made any of those purchases but instead had placed that money in a bank account earning interest? Wow, now that would be special. As I continue on my quest of reaching a point where all debt including my mortgage is paid in full I have to remain vigilant to my cause. Each month I have the real pleasure of seeing my debt reduced and savings go up and know that my decisions are making the progress I need to reach my ultimate goal one day.
So for today I will continue to pound away on the keyboard of this laptop that I picked up at a pawn shop and do the same thing I would do if I had purchased this new item of desire. What about you? Are there times in your life when those items of desire seem to come alive in your mind and you just can’t seem to stop thinking about them?
Today I will spend another day of rest and allow my body to heal and be restored. Since yesterday after a day of rest my body weight dropped 3.2 lbs. which is a strong indication to me that I was suffering from inflammation. I pushed a little too hard and too fast by jumping to a new summer routine and my body responded by believing that it was injury. I think I can still crank it up a notch, but it has to be completed with small steps. My blood sugar has also come down and by tomorrow morning I should be ready to resume my old routine of just 20 minutes on the treadmill and 1 set of resistance exercises.
Blood Sugar- 100, Weight- 172.2
Lunch- 2 Egg, 2 Bacon
Dinner- Lamb Chops, Broccoli