As my life progresses in a direction where as each day passes I learn more and more how much I treasure and desire the simplicity of life. All of those things that I desired as a young man have gone away in forgotten dreams of lost temporary pleasures. I don’t remember too much about those first couple of cars I owned, but I do remember so much about the people who surrounded me with love as I drove in them. I can’t remember the gifts I received on Birthdays or Holidays, but I do remember every detail about who was at those celebrations and the laughs of joy we shared.
It is never about the thing, but is always about the people and experiences we gain. Those long lasting memories that never leave us as the years go by. How is it that it took so long to realize this? Is it this way in all cultures around the world, or just this way in those countries who are driven by a consumer based economy? Is it a learned trait that we always push for more and more stuff to the point where we want to become the King of the Stuff, or is it something that we are born with? I don’t know, but it seems to me that the more stuff we accumulate, the more stuff we want. There is always something that we are reaching out for despite the fact that we have so much. And the truth is that it makes us happy only when we get it. Sure the happiness may linger a few days or so, or even weeks, but it isn’t long before we are looking for that next item of desire.
And during this whole learning process I think about all of the money that was spent on buying shit just to fill the desire of buying shit. If I were to save all of that money for all of those years where now would I be in my life? How would it be different? Thank God, that in my late 40’s I woke up and realized what the hell I was doing. I am lucky that I still have time to make the right changes in my life and start concentrating more on life itself and not the stuff that fills our lives.
So what is my job as a late blooming, simple life seeker? Well of course, to teach both my children and grandchildren the lessons that I have learned in hope that they just may understand what life is really about. Maybe, just maybe our grandchildren will learn enough to make the changes necessary to fix this problem, because I don’t see it in my lifetime. Let them look at the landfills dug so deep and piled so high with all of the desires of those who rushed out to the malls to fill their homes, only to turn around and put them out for trash. Let them think about all the money that was spent on these desires that instead could have went towards things like fixing our homeless population. And let them truly understand that happiness is never found in a box and can only be found in the love of the experiences we spend with other people. It’s the hike on an unknown trail, the sight of a glorious sunrise or the sound of the wind blowing through the tree’s as we lay on the grass in a park that brings about the real joys of life. All of the happiness you will ever seek can be found in the simplest of the life around you.
I am getting a bit out of control here and this morning’s blood sugar numbers are scaring the shit out of me. Again last night I played with things I shouldn’t have played with. Potato’s with dinner, snacking on pretzels and drinking beer. My life and my diet are totally out of control and I know it. Now here it is Easter Day, another holiday that we typically celebrate with food. Although I will be tempted by so many high carbohydrate foods that I know I can’t eat, I will opt to eat just the meat and fresh vegetables.
Pull it together man, get back on track and return to center. My balance is way off and has to find it’s way back. As I examine my day I come to realize that I have high energy all day long to make the right choices with food. It is the end of the day that drives me to drink beer and eat crap. This is the part of the day that needs repair. I am lifting weights like a beast this morning to try and drive that sugar from my system.
Despite the fact that it is Spring it still has been too damn cold to get outside and do anything truly recreational. Northern Oregon is a lovely place to live for 3-4 months out of the year. The rest of the year is cold, damp and raining. Is it no wonder I am drinking so much beer… Yes, Tampa, Florida is in my plans for the end of this year.
Blood Sugar- 195, Weight- 170.2
Curls- 160 lbs. – 8, 9, 7
Hammer Curls- 110 lbs. – 12, 11, 10
Tricep Pulldown- 140 lbs. – 14, 15, 14
Dips- 310 lbs. – 20, 25, 20
Alternating Situps- 3×6- (Stopped because of lower back pain)
Breakfast- Cottage Cheese
Lunch- Eggs and Sausage
Dinner- Ham, Salad, Asparagus