Yesterday was a bad day. I was expecting my license to come in the mail so I could finally return to work, but instead received a message that my license is still waiting to be processed. Apparently the State background check database crashed and they are currently in the process of rebuilding it. They are looking at a target date of April 10th. Are you kidding me? The last day that I physically worked was February 16th. How is it possible that with all of the technology we have now the process of renewing a security license can take close to 2 months? The system is broken when it comes to government agencies.
Financially I am OK as I have a retirement check that comes in each month, but the plan that I put in place for paying down debt has been put on hold for a while. In the grand scheme of things, overall this doesn’t mean much, but it still makes me angry. What if I was in a situation where like most people I depended on that paycheck? Peoples lives depend upon a government system that actually works. I am currently paying 9.6% of all of my earned income, including retirement towards Oregon State Taxes. Hello? What am I getting for my money?
I believe what angers me the most is that I am getting really bored sitting at home. There’s really not much to do when everyone else is working. It is totally throwing off my daily schedule that I created and I long to return to it. And Oh Boy, did I act out yesterday when I got the news. I wanted to make phone calls and yell at people, but deep down inside I knew this wouldn’t help and might even make matter worse, so I just bottled it up inside. Then I started eating any and all crap I could find. Crackers, pretzels just to name a few. And Oh, the beer. I did drink beer last night.
I would love to honestly say that I am a man who is in control of his life, and for the most part I believe that I am. But sometimes my emotions do get the better of me. So here I am sitting in shame with a morning glucose reading of 146. I don’t typically get into emotional eating, but this was certainly not the case yesterday.
Blood Sugar- 146, Weight- 169.8
Bench Press- 310- 24, 20, 18
Incline Press- 310-18, 16, 15
Decline Press- 310- 20, 18, 16
Flys- 160- 15, 13, 12
Breakfast- 2 Eggs, 2 Bacon
Lunch- Steak, Broccoli
Dinner- Pork Chops, Cabbage